Yearning for joy, peace, and light beyond mere survival
I want more for myself.
Whatever you have been through or are going through, you are allowed to want more too.
I want more for myself out of life.
Not out of greed, not out of dissatisfaction, but because I know there is more to life than just surviving. More than only existing.
More joy, more living.
More love and friendships. More light and sunshine. More cultures and peoples. More beauty and hidden treasures.
When I say ‘more’ I actually mean ‘any’. Any of everything that I am currently going without, and less of what I have too much of.
Less pain and fatigue. Less sensations and fevers. Less anxiety and panic. Fewer empty days and nights.
Anything but that. And then more of it. So much more.
If you’ve been through a lot or are still in the thick of it like me, I want you to know this: you are allowed to want more too. More peace. More love. More lightness.
Wanting more does not mean you’re ungrateful. It means you believe in yourself and in your future.
Because we believe in the value of life, we want more of it.
This is your permission to go after it.
Sandra Postma
Posted on 27 August 2025 on Substack
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